Joyeux Anniversaire

On this day, 5 years ago (although I'm about 2 hours off...) a precious little girl was born. This is a very tough subject for me even still, which is why I don't bring it up very often. Isabelle has brought Sam and I both more than I could have ever imagined. She's beautiful, she's extremely intelligent, she's charismatic, she's creative, and let's be honest, like most 'parents' look at their children, borderline perfect and special in every way. Isabelle may have been the result of some poor decisions on our part, but I have never and will never view any of it as a 'mistake'. God's timing, as always, is perfect. It was by NO means in MY timing, but it happened and it changed my life and took me off of a very self destructive path. It united Sam and I more than I could have ever dreamed. And, it brought a GREAT family into our lives that we would have never met otherwise. My heart aches every moment of every day for that girl, something I was warned, but never really understood. I cry tears of joy and sadness all at the same time when I hear about all the things going on in her life. But today is a day of celebration, even though I get a tinge of sadness. Today is the recognition of the birth of a wonderful gift from God for so many. :)