Today is the last day of 2010.
2010 was CONSIDERABLY better than 2009, but it was a year of struggles, of hard lessons, of finding God in dark places and recognizing the blessings that seem to pass by me unnoticed.
2010 was the year I got my husband back from war.
It's been a year of enlightenment; of learning more about myself and about my God.
It was a year of stepping out of my circumstances and praising the God that IS faithful even when I do NOT deserve it.
It will also be a year of (admittedly sporadic) blogging as of January 6! Doesn't seem like it's been that long...
As I've been unintentionally referring to it in conversation, I'm considering 2011 to be a year of hope. I'm entering this year hopeful and optimistic. I'm not letting my situations define me or control me. I will continue to delve deeper into God's living Word and learn even more about the hope we have in Christ, the best hope of all. I am determined to live with HOPE instead of feeling so hopeless.
I hope you all enjoy the ringing in of the new year!
31 December 2010
05 December 2010
Après la pluie, le beau temps.
I do believe it's about time to have a post about some of the great things happening in our lives at the moment!
The biggest thing to have happened this month was the official clearing of any and all punishment for Sam!!! Since he has been adhering to a strict therapy regimen with no added incidents, they have decided to let him off free and clear. (However, that does not mean changes that have been implemented because of this are going away.) Praise God! Not only is he not going to be receiving any punishment, it's looking like he will be getting a promotion within the next MONTH or two!! The relief that I have been feeling since this was officially announced Friday has just been incredible. I've been preparing for a financial hardship, and now will not only NOT have to deal with that, but will be getting an increase in our pay as well! Praise God once again!
Second, we were very seriously blessed by some readers of my blog with the gift of a washer and dryer (awhile back now)! It may sound silly to some, but the mere presence of these two big items has dramatically improved the feeling of HOME in this house. This was something completely unexpected to me. I had primarily wanted it solely for the fact of not having to lug giant bags of clothes and uniforms to the laundromat, especially when it was hard enough juggling having only 1 car. Now I'm able to slowly do the laundry throughout the weekend and still spend time with my husband! I don't like to use the word 'blessing' lightly, but this really has been SUCH a blessing! (Thank you again so very much :) )
Third, I got a job!! After months of having nothing to do, I am finally employed in a job that I was looking for. Although it's turning out to be much more of a challenge than I was expecting, I still am so very thankful to have the opportunity to give of myself, hopefully bless others and, obviously, add to our income (which as an E4 could always use some boosting :P).
I tend to complain and rant a lot in here, but I wanted to make sure to make my blessings known as well! We're still trudging along in this journey of infertility, but I can't help but continue to have high hopes. I'm now at the point where I feel relatively confident bringing it up to a medical professional, it's just getting myself to get over this fear and actually MAKE the appointment. I don't know if I'm afraid to have my worst fears confirmed or if I'm afraid of being brushed off like I have so many times before, but I've just been terrified to make this appointment. I don't know if I can truly handle being told I'm fine and to 'relax and it will happen' one more time... However, I am thankful in some ways for this experience. It has definitely shown me where my priorities lie, and where they really SHOULD be lying (with God). It has brought Sam and I together even more. I've also learned so much more about myself and about my God. I refuse to walk away from this having learned nothing! I do plan on approaching a doctor about this, but I have really released control of this to God. I firmly believe in His ultimate timing, after all He truly has yet to let me down. Part of me is very glad I was not pregnant for the experiences we've had over the summer and the fall, and I know His hand was in that completely. I just hope everything is alright with my health and that someday I will have the opportunity to not only give birth, but be able to be a mother, all in God's perfect timing :)
The biggest thing to have happened this month was the official clearing of any and all punishment for Sam!!! Since he has been adhering to a strict therapy regimen with no added incidents, they have decided to let him off free and clear. (However, that does not mean changes that have been implemented because of this are going away.) Praise God! Not only is he not going to be receiving any punishment, it's looking like he will be getting a promotion within the next MONTH or two!! The relief that I have been feeling since this was officially announced Friday has just been incredible. I've been preparing for a financial hardship, and now will not only NOT have to deal with that, but will be getting an increase in our pay as well! Praise God once again!
Second, we were very seriously blessed by some readers of my blog with the gift of a washer and dryer (awhile back now)! It may sound silly to some, but the mere presence of these two big items has dramatically improved the feeling of HOME in this house. This was something completely unexpected to me. I had primarily wanted it solely for the fact of not having to lug giant bags of clothes and uniforms to the laundromat, especially when it was hard enough juggling having only 1 car. Now I'm able to slowly do the laundry throughout the weekend and still spend time with my husband! I don't like to use the word 'blessing' lightly, but this really has been SUCH a blessing! (Thank you again so very much :) )
Third, I got a job!! After months of having nothing to do, I am finally employed in a job that I was looking for. Although it's turning out to be much more of a challenge than I was expecting, I still am so very thankful to have the opportunity to give of myself, hopefully bless others and, obviously, add to our income (which as an E4 could always use some boosting :P).
I tend to complain and rant a lot in here, but I wanted to make sure to make my blessings known as well! We're still trudging along in this journey of infertility, but I can't help but continue to have high hopes. I'm now at the point where I feel relatively confident bringing it up to a medical professional, it's just getting myself to get over this fear and actually MAKE the appointment. I don't know if I'm afraid to have my worst fears confirmed or if I'm afraid of being brushed off like I have so many times before, but I've just been terrified to make this appointment. I don't know if I can truly handle being told I'm fine and to 'relax and it will happen' one more time... However, I am thankful in some ways for this experience. It has definitely shown me where my priorities lie, and where they really SHOULD be lying (with God). It has brought Sam and I together even more. I've also learned so much more about myself and about my God. I refuse to walk away from this having learned nothing! I do plan on approaching a doctor about this, but I have really released control of this to God. I firmly believe in His ultimate timing, after all He truly has yet to let me down. Part of me is very glad I was not pregnant for the experiences we've had over the summer and the fall, and I know His hand was in that completely. I just hope everything is alright with my health and that someday I will have the opportunity to not only give birth, but be able to be a mother, all in God's perfect timing :)
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